So far...So good

Long time since I wrote anything on this blog. Basically I was waiting for my bemused thoughts to catch something clear so that it would be easy to put them in words. Once I get something stable in my mind the circumstances shape up in such a way that I wouldn't be able to put them down. Well past-is-was-would-be-past lets get on ahead.

For nearly past three months I had been out from 'home' locations - Hyderabad and the Chennai .. I mean insti. I was on intern with Avaya Pune. It was a relief change in a way from a hectic schedule back in college in the previous semester. As the things kept shaping up I had started to experience the perils of working life. Though it wasn't a dog-eat-dog environment at the office but still it was a very major change from the life back at insti.

The intern started out with few inspiring set of discussions between us and our mentor. The intern experience would have been very much empty if its not for my mentor Venky ... though it may sound like a cliche but its a fact. He had been in the industry for nearly 20 years and still going strong with great energy levels. Other cool fact is that he is an alumni of my insti. After going through various technical possibilities available for us we zeroed in on making a tool for designing sip based call flows. I restrain my self for not going into details as a>I in all consciousness remember all the details of the work we had done and b> I don't want to turn this post too technical.

As the intern progressed I missed a lot of luxuries. Its the huge collection of movies of all kinds of ratings, free times spent with my gumbal, the luxury of my room, taramani and literally everything thats insti. At few moments I felt as if I had lost these to the circumstances. The one most comforting thought during my intern was the fact that I would go back to my college and have one full year of life there ... and after 3 months I am yearning to get back to everything I had at the college.

I had also gathered a good collection of memories from Avaya too . We had a few amazing treks here in Pune and not to forget the 3rd quarter party with unlimited booze and get-together dances. There was quite a good content of party along with the work. We burned the cash on many instances . Let it be for movies or booze or some hangout we had great time doing all these.

When we stay and work at some place for three months we tend to build attachment with the place and people. The consequence is the memories of time we spent there hitting us ... come on man I can't bear such thoughts as they make me dull. U need to enjoy the change for the fact that we never get to control it.

Going through all these happy moments there was a silent fear for my career . I know I have lot to slog for my GRE. I have to zero in on my final year project and other related fears of losing my dreams to circumstances.

We finally put a decent show for our presentation. Got couple of comforting reviews and I am pleased that a few were inquisitive about the work we had done.

At the end we had Venky coming to Pune to meet us. He barely spoke to us for just over an hour. It was much less time than I had expected. But its understandable as he was along with his family then.

After all these I am back to square one with a new start for my search for- 'what is my passion for ?'. I have to refuel my energies in this seemingly never ending search, overcoming the schedule at insti and the insuperable laziness.