There wasn't a time when a real time sound judgment was required and I end up botching up the scene, only to regret later about the better ways in which things could have been executed. The culprit in the most cases was my impatience and its derivatives like fickleness, short-sightedness and largely stupidity. The irritating phrase 'common sense is not so common' hits me to add more fuel to my burning ego.
I get conned by a clever beggar pretending to have lost the baggage on his pilgrimage bound tour to southern India and joining him are his hungry looking kids and females, together forming a family ready to con any gullible willing to lend his/her ear to their woes. I forgot to mention an uncontrollable factor called Fate, which I believe drives me head-on into these situations only to pull my feet down when life seems to be raising me with praises. I can't say what stopped me from helping them by taking them to the respective authorities or buying them the general tickets rather than paying them money. It is a feeling with huge guilt when I fail on things as simple as these as my career ambitions unsympathetically punish such faulty decisions.
Today when Ashwin drove into a bike which was parked at a wrong place, I pushed for paying entirely for the biker's repair charges. The point of contention is not monetary rather about paying for the faults. As we had paid entirely for the repair, which was not huge, it gives a picture where the fault is entirely ours while it was not. I could have fined the biker some amount for him to realize his share of mistake in the accident. This could have been the ethical conclusion but my impatience driven by the feeling that the amount was not as huge as expected, led me to yet another faulty decision.
The more I dissect these incidents various things pop to warn me. Respect my hardwork, only then I can respect the money I earned and spend it consciously. Patience - my mistake till now is that I tried impatiently various means to gain this. I first have to take the right path with a deep breath. Finally remember to knock the doors of my reasoning at such times.
I get conned by a clever beggar pretending to have lost the baggage on his pilgrimage bound tour to southern India and joining him are his hungry looking kids and females, together forming a family ready to con any gullible willing to lend his/her ear to their woes. I forgot to mention an uncontrollable factor called Fate, which I believe drives me head-on into these situations only to pull my feet down when life seems to be raising me with praises. I can't say what stopped me from helping them by taking them to the respective authorities or buying them the general tickets rather than paying them money. It is a feeling with huge guilt when I fail on things as simple as these as my career ambitions unsympathetically punish such faulty decisions.
Today when Ashwin drove into a bike which was parked at a wrong place, I pushed for paying entirely for the biker's repair charges. The point of contention is not monetary rather about paying for the faults. As we had paid entirely for the repair, which was not huge, it gives a picture where the fault is entirely ours while it was not. I could have fined the biker some amount for him to realize his share of mistake in the accident. This could have been the ethical conclusion but my impatience driven by the feeling that the amount was not as huge as expected, led me to yet another faulty decision.
The more I dissect these incidents various things pop to warn me. Respect my hardwork, only then I can respect the money I earned and spend it consciously. Patience - my mistake till now is that I tried impatiently various means to gain this. I first have to take the right path with a deep breath. Finally remember to knock the doors of my reasoning at such times.
